Joy M.

Call to Moirai   Sometimes I wonder why I'm alive. Is there a purpose for me? Could there be a scheme within the seams of destiny? Do the three sisters of fate sit in their chairs  laughing before Atropos snips a mortal coil? How does Clotho spin my thread to watch my days wisp by like fog off of a mountaintop? I'd call out to Lachesis but told that bitch is tight-lipped. Only time will tell but it feels like hell as the Moirai sit oblivious while I swirl these thoughts deep in mind throughout the night. Joy4no1 

Hey guys, Hope everyone is having a great day. I've been writing so much my poems have suffered, but thanks for hanging in there! I hope you like the chapters of Chester and the 24-hour lottery I have been posting. 15 chapters deep in his tale so far. As usual, my music is changing. I listen to everything! (but country) sorry if you gasp at that. Yes, I don't like country music! Deal with it! Lyrics mean a lot, and this song resonates. Writing is a lonely profession but hell, my words, and music keep me company. Until next time my fuktastic reader! Joy M.

Loves gonna getcha   All day it's there like a fissure of warmth out of sight. Love. Believe it or not babe- it's something to anticipate! Everyday all day billions of people looking... wishing... speculating the day your arms will embrace.   Scrutinize eyes diverted your way. Imagine who you'll cherish in your psychic theatre. At the end of it all waiting for your paramour you'll never see it coming  when love does getcha babe! Joy4no1 

Well I met an old man dying on a train. No more destination, no more pain. Well he said one thing, before I graduate "Never let your fear decide your fate." I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. No need to worry 'cause, everybody will die. Every day we just go, go, baby don't go. Don't you worry we love you more than you know. Well the sun one day will Leave us all behind. Unexplainable sightings In the sky. Well I hate to be The one to ruin the night. Right before your, right before your eyes. I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. No need to worry 'cause, everybody will die. Every day we just go, go, baby don't go. Don't you worry we love you more than you know. Well I met an old man dying on a train. No more destination, no more pain. Well he said one thing, before I graduate "Never let your fear decide your fate." I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. No need...

Curbed   I really should refrain, no one needs these ghastly prose. Laying down words bitter and unrehearsed so others feel better to say yes, bitch,  I know it's common to be unfeeling & numb  when ceilings shatter & floors give way. How hot can one-word scorch  paper with a pen running it bone dry to explain fucking give it a rest & live for today? Should we listen to our own words of wisdom or squint in distaste? I contemplate somewhere in our heads there's a nexus whining fuckers, please! I've felt up & smacked down but let me reiterate... Let me tip my glass! Let me mean no disrespect! Let me be damn well prudent from  words that slice you open like teeny tiny paper cuts  across your fragile ass skin. Let me explain, I do not care  because baby I'm out of your  fucking spitting range.   Joy4no1

Phantasmic    There is a wonder lust inside of me. Phantom feet have stood on tall peaks & kicked up from deep seas of the purest ultramarine. Stomach matured on spicy cuisine of the Orient & sweet chocolates of Switzerland. My eyes have witnessed daring feats  & ears have heard magnificent lyrics of immortal sonnets & lips have kissed, wondrous lovers. Subsequently my heart was sure to splinter alas you took it foremost to keep safe when I soared on my imagination expedition. Joy4no1 

Fain would I woo her, yet I dare not speak; I'll call for pen and ink, and write my mind. - Shakespeare, I Henry VI, V iii

Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl Let me make your broken heart like new Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl Don't you know this lonely boy loves you Ever since he broke your heart you seem so lost Each time you pass my way Oh, how I long to take your hand And say don't cry, I'll kiss your tears away Hey there lonely girl, my lonely girl Let me make your broken heart like new Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl Don't you know this lonely boy loves you You think that only his two lips can kiss your lips And make your heart stand still But once you're in my arms you'll see No one can kiss your lips the way I will The way I will Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl Let me make your broken heart like new Hey there lonely girl, lonely girl Don't you know this lonely boy loves you Don't you know this lonely boy loves you You Hey there lonely, lonely, lonely lonely girl (lonely girl, lonely girl)

When I get lost, feel I've been crossed She will be my salvation When I feel low, I've nowhere to go She'll be my inspiration Yeah, when my poor heart is breakin' apart She'll pout it back together She ain't the kind to show off her mind But talkin' of love she's clever, yeah Oh, honey (Oh, honey) Oh, honey (Oh, honey) She rarely spends time with her friends Tells me she's blue without me When things go wrong her faith is strong I know she'll never doubt me Yeah, when she arrives and stands by my side Makes me so proud to know her High-steppin' dames with high-soundin' names There ain't nothin' they could show her, yeah Oh, honey (My honey) Oh, honey (Honey, honey) Now I just wanna thank you, baby For givin' me a brand new start I was goin' down, you saved me When you let me in your lovin' heart, yeah Oh, honey (Talkin' 'bout you, honey) Oh, honey (Honey) Oh, honey (Beautiful honey) Oh, hone...

Such a lonely day And it's mine The most loneliest day of my life Such a lonely day Should be banned It's day that I can't stand The most loneliest day of my life The most loneliest day of my life Such a lonely day Shouldn't exist It's day that Ill never miss Such a lonely day And it's mine The most loneliest day of my life And if you go, I wanna go with you And if you die, I wanna die with you Take your hand and walk away The most loneliest day of my life The most loneliest day of my life The most loneliest day of my life (life) Such a lonely day And it's mine Is day that I'm glad I survived

I am with my girlfriend 2 years and decided to get married. My parents helped as much as they could and all my friends said it's a really good idea! My girlfriend? She is a dream! But there is something that bothers me!  Her little sister.. this is my future 20 year old sister-in-law, wearing a super skinny, mini skirt and blouses. Always leaning over and I saw her panties. She never did that in front of someone else! One day she calls me and asks me to come over to see the wedding invitations. When I arrive she was alone. She whispered that soon I was getting married and that she has feelings for me and she thinks she can overcome them. She also said that she desperately wanted to have sex with me just once before I marry her sister. I was shocked and could not say a word... she said to me that she was going to bed and ask if I want to join her. I froze and looked at her going up the stairs. Going up, she took her panties off and threw it at me. I stayed there for a moment and...

I don't mind you comin' here And wastin' all my time 'Cause when you're standin', oh so near I kinda lose my mind It's not the perfume that you wear It's not the ribbons in your hair And I don't mind you comin' here And wastin' all my time I don't mind you hangin' out And talkin' in your sleep It doesn't matter where you've been As long as it was deep, yeah You always knew to wear it well and You look so fancy I can tell I don't mind you hangin' out And talkin' in your sleep I guess, you're just what I needed I needed someone to feed I guess, you're just what I needed I needed someone to bleed I don't mind you comin' here And wastin' all my time, time 'Cause when you're standin', oh so near I kinda lose my mind, yeah It's not the perfume that you wear It's not the ribbons in your hair I don't mind you comin' here And wastin' all my time I gu...

Happy Thanksgiving! Joy M.

Misbegotten   Where were you when was I falling down this hole? Grasping for hands that never showed? What harsh truth I discerned when you up and fucked off as if I were to be solely blamed. Fortunately, there's a secret I keep- I brought a ladder  and  know where you rest your traitorous skull. Don't make a peep or fall asleep I am coming for you, creep.  Joy4no1

I find you in the morning After dreams of distant signs You pour yourself over me Like the sun through the blinds You lift me up And get me out Keep me walking But never shout Hold the secret close I hear you say You know the way It throws about It takes you in And spits you out It spits you out When you desire To conquer it To feel you're higher To follow it You must be clean With mistakes That you do mean Move the heart Switch the pace Look for what seems out of place On and on it goes Calling like a distant wind Through the zero hour we'll walk We'll cut the thick and break the thin No sound to break no moment clear When all the doubts are crystal clear Crashing hard into the secret wind You know the way It twists and turns Changing color Spinning yarns You know the way It leaves you dry It cuts you up And takes you high You know the way It's painted gold Is it honey Is it gold You know the way It throws abou...

You know I'm not one to break promises I don't want to hurt you but I need to breathe At the end of it all you're still my best friend But there's something inside that I need to release Which way is right? Which way is wrong? How do I say that I need to move on? You know we're heading separate ways And it feels like I am just too close to love you There's nothing I can really say I can lie no more I can hide no more Got to be true to myself And it feels like I am just too close to love you So I'll be on my way You've given me more than I can return Yet there's oh so much you deserve Nothing to say Nothing to do I've nothing to give I must live without you You know we're heading separate ways And it feels like I am just too close to love you There's nothing I can really say I can lie no more I can hide no more Got to be true to myself And it feels like I am just too close to love you So I'll be on my ...

Nippy    She is my iceberg. I have only glimpsed a sneak peek while she hides herself beneath I tell her she is sinking Doing everything I can to thaw the frost on her lips g ives me cracks no one can see as  I watch my glacial queen drift away  in unpredictable seas away from me... Joy4no1

 FUCK THE SANDMAN Drowsiness fills my mind with these thoughts of mindfulness be wary & listen so sleep can be sweet. No need for nightmares  when I wrap myself in a balm that taste of dark tones. No more will I sleep my sweet... Joy4no1

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you That I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures are All I can feel Remembering you Standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near And we kissed as the sky fell in Holding you close How I always held close in your fear Remembering you Running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow And screamed at the make-believe Screamed at the sky And you finally found all your courage To let it all go Remembering you Fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart You were stone white So delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the dark Remembering you How you used to be Slow drowned You were angels So much more than everything Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes But I never see anything If only I'd thought of the right words I ...

Little Johnny was sitting in class doing math problems when his teacher picked him to answer a question, "Johnny, if there were five birds sitting on a fence and you shot one with your gun, how many would be left?" "None," replied Johnny, "cause the rest would fly away." "Well, the answer is four," said the teacher, "but I like the way you're thinking." Little Johnny says, "I have a question for you. If there were three women eating ice cream cones in a shop, one was licking her cone, the second was biting her cone and the third was sucking her cones, which one is married?" "Well," said the teacher nervously, "I guess the one sucking the cone." "No," said little Johnny, "The one with the wedding ring on her finger, but I like the way you're thinking."

Joe took his blind date to the carnival. "What would you like to do first, Kim?" asked Joe. "I want to get weighed," she said. They ambled over to the weight guesser. He guessed 120 pounds. She got on the scale; it read 117 and she won a prize. Next, the couple went on the ferris wheel. When the ride was over, Joe again asked Kim what she would like to do.  "I want to get weighed." she said. Back to the weight guesser they went. Since they had been there before, he guessed her correct weight, and Joe lost his dollar. The couple walked around the carnival and again he asked where to next. "I want to get weighed," she responded. By this time, Joe figured she was really weird and took her home early, dropping her off with a handshake. Her roommate, Laura, asked her about the blind date, "How did it go, Kim?" Kim responded, "Oh, Waura, it was wousy."

Oh, the shark, babe, has such teeth, dear And it shows them pearly white Just a jackknife has old MacHeath, babe And he keeps it, ah, out of sight Ya know when that shark bites with his teeth, babe Scarlet billows start to spread Fancy gloves, oh, wears old MacHeath, babe So there's never, never a trace of red Now on the sidewalk, huh, huh, whoo sunny morning, un huh Lies a body just oozin' life, eek And someone's sneakin' 'round the corner Could that someone be Mack the Knife? There's a tugboat, huh, huh, down by the river don'tcha know Where a cement bag's just a'drooppin' on down Oh, that cement is for, just for the weight, dear Five'll get ya ten old Macky's back in town Now d'ja hear 'bout Louie Miller? He disappeared, babe After drawin' out all his hard-earned cash And now MacHeath spends just like a sailor Could it be our boy's done somethin' rash? Now Jenny Diver, ho, ho, yeah, Sukey Tawdry Ooh, Mi...

Jealousy's Love   Can you perceive what we do not see? Communication is utterly sick, so now I will predict; Jealousy does take pictures then plants them in souls like flowers. Blooming till fortunate death  our breath still held fearing the oncoming wrath. Casting toward darkened paths, we chose to walk naked in glass. Blood is our joy. Then pain is never more. Joy M.  11-5-00 (Published 03')

Cheers darlin' Here's to you and your lover boy Cheers darlin' I got years to wait around for you  Cheers darlin' I've got your wedding bells in my ear Cheers darlin' You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away And I die when you mention his name And I lied, I should have kissed you When we were running in the rain  What am I darlin'?  A whisper in your ear? A piece of your cake? What am I, darlin? The boy you can fear? Or your biggest mistake?  Cheers darlin' Here's to you and your lover man Cheers darlin'  I just hang around and eat from a can  Cheers darlin' I got a ribbon of green on my guitar  Cheers darlin' I got a beauty queen To sit not very far from me  I die when he comes around To take you home  I'm too shy I should have kissed you when we were alone  What am I darlin'? A whisper in your ear?  A piece of your cake?  What am I, darlin? The boy you can fear?  Or your bigges...

Girls I know you will understand this And feel the intrinsic incredible emotion You have just pulled over your head the worn Warm sweater belonging to a boy Now, you haven't had a passionate kissing session or anything But you got to go on a camping trip with him And eight other people from school And you practically slept together Your sleeping bag right next to his And you woke in the night to watch him as he slept But you couldn't see anything 'cause it was dark So you just laid there and listened to his breathing And wondered if your heart might burst The sweater has that slightly goat-like smell Which all teenage boys possess And that smell will lovingly transfer To all your other clothes If you get to keep it for a few days you can sleep with it But don't let your mom see, 'cause she'll say "what is that filthy thing, and who does it belong to Besides the trash man?" So you have to keep it under the covers with you ...

I was born by a river, oh man, in this little old tent, oh Just like this river, I've been running ever since It's been a long, long time coming But I know, but I know, a change is gotta come Ooo yes it is Oh my, oh my, oh my, oh my It's been too hard living, oh my And I'm afraid to die I don't know what's up there Beyond the clouds It's been a long, long time coming But I know, but I know a change is gotta come Oh yes it is Oh my, oh my, oh my There's a time I would go to my brother, oh my I asked my brother, "Will you help me please?", oh my oh my He turned me down and then I ask my dear mother, oh I said "Mother!" I said "Mother! I'm down on my knees" It's been a time that I thought Lord this couldn't last for very long, oh now But somehow I thought I was still able to try to carry on It's been a long, long time coming But I know a change is gonna come Oh, yes it is Just like I said, I went...

I'm all alone in my room Just me and myself Me and my gorgeous body And my fucked up brain We're thinking about all the precious moments we've had together Thinking about the places we've been the people we've met The lovers that wondered in and out of our lives The ones we've used, and abused, and then dumped Cause they don't understand us the way we do No one can rip us apart Let's face it girl We don't need anyone else We can do it all by ourselves We're two in one In flesh and in blood We share everything Everything we've got We'll stay together Forever forever forever and ever And ever and ever I know what you feel I know what you like I know what to do to drive you wild The more you want The more you get We're the same We like it wet Oh yeah! Oh! La, la, la... La, la, la... We're all alone in the room Just me and myself Me and my hungry body And my lusty brain We're thinking about what we want to do together And befor...

Hey you guys! Did everyone have a fuktastic week? Who remembers this one? Came across it and had to share. Still remember the lyrics like it was yesterday! Music is essential in my life and I'm glad you take time to check it out. I will often write music into my books, you'll just have to guess which ones (or read my work)! I'm slowly getting back into my routine and after a bit of writers block hope to produce more work. Thank goodness Netflix released some awesome shows and movies in time for Halloween and I was able to zone out like a freakin zombie. Hope you smiled today and if not give the problem the finger! Joy M.

Last song before TV time!  So much written today!  It was awkward writing a sex scene with a repairman mere feet away...  😉

SUBJECTIVE FRAMES I sit here anxious with grief for what my picture was supposed to be. Gazing. . . all I see is me alone, drifting aimlessly. The smile I give is pure, although it may come across as unsure. There is another blueprint set side by side, your beaming lips matching mine. I took you into my heart love and never will you part even if the picture fades  &  chips away telling time through my weary smiles  & tarnished frames.  Joy M.

Like anyone would be I am flattered by your fascination with me Like any hot-blooded woman I have simply wanted an object to crave But you, you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight Must be strangely exciting To watch the stoic squirm Must be somewhat heartening To watch shepard meet shepard But you you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight Like any uncharted territory I must seem greatly intriguing You speak of my love like You have experienced love like mine before But this is not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight I don't think you unworthy I need a moment to deliberate.

  NOTHING GOES BACK THE SAME There was something wrong. My mouth, I found it dry and lips cracked from lack of moisture. Opening my eyes took several seconds as my head rocked back and forth. What had happened to me? Where was I? I heard a creaking sound as my eyes adjusted to the poor light in whatever room I was in. Room? More like a dirt cellar. Yes, that was exactly where I was, only I didn't know how the hell I had gotten to be there. Another creak. Slowly, I moved to sit up, body achingly aware it was dehydrated. Mind afraid of what laid beyond my limited sight. Sight? The light was only coming from where I kept hearing the eerie creak. "You are awake?" I know that voice. He spoke so carefully, so tenderly it caused hot tears to form in my dry eyes. No. Why did he do this? Swallowing past the thick mucus in my mouth I could only whimper. "It's not that I wanted to put you here," his tone was so low I strained to hear, ...

I must confess that I cry from loneliness And the door is still open to my heart You are to me like honey is to the bee And the door is still open to my heart I'm not ashamed to cry It's better then to hold it inside And I won't be satisfied Until you're here by my side You're as close to me as two is to three And the door is still open to my heart (I'm not ashamed to cry It's better than to hold it inside) And I won't be satisfied Until you're here by my side You're as close to me as two is to three And the door is still open to my heart And the door is still open to my heart