I Wonder

The wildness of the years

can't pacify what I need to hear.

That you want me near

 & 

dear

That our naked skin isn't to demoralizing & unclear.

My body can't stop quivering

when you are near.

Do you want me mOi for me?

or

 what I have called you 

in ecstasy - dear?

I want to see you smile

& 

know it is worth my time

That my mind

& 

body

& 

soul

aren't being used for what you consider yours alone.

I am who I will always be

Someone that feels 

& 

bleeds

That has so many ideas

& 

won't be caged.

I can see myself in your eyes

although... are you such a prize?

I think not 

but then again,

I want someone

that's real

&

won't weigh me in.

I like to laugh

& 

sing

&

be who I came to be

but are you whom I came to see

when you roll your eyes at me?

Can I call you names

&

not care insults are exchanged?

Have a glitch in my facsimile

&

see you in the tapestry? 

&

I wonder. . . 

J.M.

(12-8-08)